Chapter 188 : Lost of confidence.
Written @ 12:40 AM
While I was browsing through the internet looking for videos,
I suddenly thought of the upcoming MSSM tournament.
I went all sweaty and my heart beat like hell.
I haven't been practising much lately.
And I'm so fcking afraid. :\
I keep missing tennis lessons.
And most of them because of scout activities. T_T
I'm not trying to blame scout for this.
Those decisions were made by me.
I know I shouldn't regret them, but I do, okay? I really do.
I don't know what to do now.
I should have sparred with my brother when he was still in Melaka.
But now he's not here anymore. -.-
Regrets regrets regrets.
HAISH.
@(#*@()#*_@)#*!()@*#(
Someone save meee.
I want to have extra tennis lessons but I don't think mom will agree.
First of all, I'm busy enough and second of all, individual tennis lessons are expensive shit.
Normally I'd train with my dad, but now he's not here anymore :(
Currently under pressure. D:
What if I lose to a girl who's only 13?
That'd be the most sia sui-est thing ever. -_-
I'm losing confidence day by day after what happened in KL.
[losing practically to everyone and having stomachache. -.- ]
WHAT IF. WHAT IF. T_T
Haih, this year, I'll just have to see my luck.
No surprise if I lost to someone who's 13. =-=
Please don't go and say,
" Oh EM GEEEEEE How can you lose to her?! "
Well let me tell you this,
I DON'T PRACTISE 24/7, SO PLEASE,
don't ask stupid questions when I lose. =(
I know I'm saying this like it's the biggest problem of all.
IT IS.
TO ME.
Beloved hands, legs, body stamina, tennis racquet and tennis balls, I hope you'd be good to me this year.
I love you a lot.
Really.
Piano, you've all I got now. <3
x
celine.
never ending regrets.
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Chapter 187 : Folio, Folio, Folio OHHHH
Written @ 8:55 PM
First of all, I am not satisfied with my one-week-break. >:(
I haven't had time to relax and watch my Korean drama. Zzz.
Well, I had. Only curi-curi cos when my mum passes by the computer room I'd have to off it and pretend to do my work. :P
WHICH, of course, I've finished..a little. ;D
I'm just so sick of doing folios.
Especially Sejarah. :\
The only satisfying thing I'd done is the stupid tidak-kurang-daripada-100 perkataan-esei.
I'd written 148 words :P Heh.
and 4 nilai patriotisme. Nyehehehe.
Why are there so many stuff we need to do research on?
It's not like we're gonna be a Sejarahwan when we grow up.
And giving us a tajuk as boring as MBMB, is really trying to test our patience.
=_____=
I am super sick of it.
School's reopening tomorrow.
I haven't done calligraphy homework.
I shall write like 3 or 4 pages later.
So I wouldn't have to worry about it for the next 3 weeks. >:D
Fyi, the printer, is finally, FIXED.
I was so happy until I printed so many piano sheets. -_-
Doubt I have the time to learn'em all. :\
But I'll try.
In the mean time, I've gotta continue my Sejarah folio now.
So yeaah. Short update. Because I felt like it. :P
Teeeeheeeee!
btw, sry it's late but, PRAY FOR JAPAN! Show'em some lurrrrvvve. <3
my only decent pic of my new haircut.
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x
celine.
No matter how hard I try,
nothing seems to be right.
Chapter 186 : Orientation camp.
Written @ 12:27 AM
One word to describe this camp - Tiring.
Well, you could say that I have no rights to say that I'm tired because I didn't really help much,
but heck, I am tired.
For those who have worked and worked and helped and helped until you are dying,
sorry I didn't help much.
SORRY.
The worst stuff about camp : Mosquitoes, toilets, mosquitoes, sweltering sun, mosquitoes, burung hantu (unless you're a helper, but it's the same, so yeah. ;P )
Got to school at 9am. But we were supposed to reach at 8am. -_-
Apparently, Sarina had already informed us on Saturday on Facebook.
But I didn't get on Facebook that day so I didn't know.
Needless to say that those who didn't get the message were late.
So, I'm sorry I didn't get the message. And I'm sorry I was late.
I lazy wanna say the whole camp's process lehhh. LOL.
Just that it was very embarrassing when I was teaching the campers kawad basics.
I commanded wrongly, demonstrated wrongly. OMG. @@
I was damn nervous that time. x.x
Super sia sui. Takpe, next time I must rehearse myself first only go teach.
Or else ahhh. Haih.
Some of the Form 1 girls were kind of rude and talkative.
And they were not really punctual. :\
One of the girls, whom I shall not mention the name, could not wake up when we called them up for Burung Hantu. lol.
Sarina and I were like crazy people waking her up. O.O
" WEII!!!!! 起来!!!!听到吗???!!!"
"起来了!! 不要再睡了!!"
" 你迟的话要被down啊!!！快点!!"
No response. Omg.
We shook the tent, put on music, shouted, screamed. X_X
And after God-knows-how-long, she finally woke up. -_-
She loves arguing with us too~
Owling session was kind of fun for us helpers.
but I think the campers didn't have much fun because most of the time they were just standing or sitting at their respective places.
2 of the campers cried lol.
I think they expected more and scared themselves. @@
We paired a guy and a girl together and made them do poses.
Damn cute and funny!! XD
The last day was the most pekcek day because we had to clean up.
We had to help them tie the tongkats too~
Cleaned up 3A1 and 3A2.
Sorry to those helpers who had stayed back until it was super late.
My mom had something on so I couldn't stay for long. :\
I'm sorry.
lol i've been saying a lot of sorry's throughout the whole camp.
Found this in my old folder.
made it when I was 12?
time flies.
x
celine.
Chapter 185 : Let Zygotes Be Zygotes.
Written @ 6:14 AM
Chapter 4 of Science is reaaaally long. :O
It's not really an embarrassing chapter to learn actually.
( harhar, acting all mature here. LOLLL )
It must be one of the most happiest classes I've been to since kindergarten.
HAHAHA. not that I'm a pervert or anything.
it's just that, Sir laughs A LOT when he teaches this chapter.
A LOT MORE than expected.
So yeah. It's pretty funny. =D
But that's not the point of this post. -_-
Hmmmmmm.
Oh, right.
My brother came back yesterday.
With Yanlin. :P
HAHAHA. We celebrated mum's birthday at Sakura House just now.
We were SUPPOSED to surprise her, but failed. :O
Had a great time though. (:
I'm going to Orientation Camp on Sunday! :D
Kinda excited (?) because I shall not join as a camper but as a helper. *proud face*
lol no la jk.
Kinda nervous. D:
Scared.
Terrified.
HORRIFIED.
DIE!!!!
lol.
Especially owling ehh.
What if we scared the wrong people?! LOLOL.
Takutnyerr. later we scare wrong people we pulak kena scared. :O
Just thinking about it makes my skin crawl. *crawl crawl crawl*
Let's just PRAYYY.
*I close my eyessssss~ So I could be a gaayyyyy~* - Justin Gayber.
No offence. Sorry. I couldn't help it. HAHAHA.
haih.
my hols are packed. I'm a busy womannn. (kononnya)
Blehh.
Why is it that I always feel like writing something in my blog but when I start writing(typing), I have nothing to write(type) about, at all?!
This sucks.
FOLIOS suck.
Just as I was about to relax after monthly test ( HAHAHA I was relaxing the whole time ),
all the folios just came by and CRUSHED the spirits outta me like..
A GIRL WHOSE SPIRITS ARE CRUSHED!! ( ? )
Ignore me. I'm crazy.
If you want, you can join me. Because I don't mind company. :)
Okla, I shall write more after the fantawesome camp k.
As I said, I'm a busy woman. :P
HAHAHAH.
GUBYE!
( yes GUBYE. no spelling errors :p )
HOT STUFF. HAHA.
x
Celine. (:
Chapter 184 : D.E.D.
Written @ 1:00 AM
My spelling is just fine, if you're wondering.
D.E.D. aka "Depression-and-Emotional-Disorder" : A disorder caused mainly by really bad test/exam results.....yeah that's pretty much that. LOL.
this is a sample photo of having DE disorder.
LOL.
tried so hard to get this angle man!
but it's blur.
Yeah. Well, it's a disorder made by me. ( obviously? -.- )
Haih.
I've been suffering from DED for quite a few days now. D:
It's not called EMO-ing, or being DEPRESSED.
It's both at the same time! Which makes no sense at all!
And apparently, being EMO or DEPRESSED is totally different from having DED.
SO YEAH.
I know you don't get it. HEHEHEHEH.
Now I'm having CGD. Crazy and Gila Disorder. Mainly caused by DED.
AHHHH.
):
Tell you what. My results = Shit.
The position I'll get is most probably 40+.
Am I positive of that? YES. *&%$#@%!^@
Main reason why I've been suffering from DED.
Not really.
I just like sitting alone and do nothing.
EEEEEEEE I wanna play tennis leh.
Nobody play with me O.O
Everyone's like playing either twice or thrice a week.
Me? Once in a freaking week. And I suck. :(
OOOOH BTW. I just got a free metronome! HEEEE.
Happy daoo~~ Although I really hate the damn thing. A lot.
Cse. I don't like counting beats when playing. So I hate it. A lot.
=)
But. Since it's free, then I'm happy. AHHAHA.
My metronome (:
Me and my awesome metronome.
Together, we are ONE.
( AHAHAHA sound so geli. :P )
btw i bet im gonna use it like once in a blue moon.
I hate metronomes for God's sake.
you still don't know that do you?
well too bad then.
didn't expect much from you either.
x
celine.
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