"What do you wanna become when you grow up? Oh I bet you're gonna be in MMU."
"So, are you going to stay in Melaka for Form 6? Then you can be with your mom."
That's what people usually say when they see me. Am I not worthy to go overseas to further my studies? Saying all of these, people, are actually an indirect way of looking down on me. Please, do I look like someone who takes my studies light? To just waste off my parents' hard-earned money so that I could just get into a university and study, and then maybe fail halfway because I can't catch up? I'm not saying MMU or Form 6 isn't good. They're good options. But all I wanna say is, can you people just stop talking about what I'm going to do when I grow up? Do you know what I want? No, you don't.
I plan to get a scholarship. I don't want to use my parents' money. I want to earn the scholarship myself. The truth is, I plan to study overseas, like in Canada or Australia. But then I realize, they don't give scholarships to places like these. They only provide scholarships to India, Ireland or whatnot. To study in Canada, I'd have to use all the money I have. It's freaking expensive. And yet, some people can't understand that studying there isn't just about the educational problems, it's about financial problems too. YOU probably don't read my blog, but I'm just gonna say that you're very immature for a person your age. You'd rather lock yourself in a room just because your mom doesn't have sufficient money for you to go overseas? What is wrong with you? I bet you spent your parents half their fortune just so you could study what you want. You've wasted all your time changing courses, and wasting money. Yet you spend the money like water.
I really don't want to be like that. I want to have a good future. You may say it's a little too early for a 15-year-old to say all these, but hey, everyone has a goal. And maybe I would change my opinion on all these when I'm 17, but I assure you that I'd try my very best to achieve what I want. And no, I haven't thought of my career yet. It's much too early. Doctor? I'm scared of blood. Lawyer? I'm not very good at arguing. Engineer? My science isn't good. Pharmacist? Don't think so. Accountant? I'll consider.
For now, I shall concentrate on my PMR. Which is like, 4 days away. Yet I'm here thinking and ranting about what people think.
K. I'm going now.
Bye.
x
Celine.
Someday I'm going to prove to everyone.
I'm not your typical girl who yearns for pretty dresses and cute boyfriends.
Chapter 206 : I can be tough.
I can be strong.
But with you, it's not like that at all. ♥
Ha. I doubt anyone comes here anymore, but I don't care.
This is my haven.
So, I think I should be more careful with my words.
I constantly curse and swear (Lol. Should reduce it.) when I'm in a bad mood or when someone pisses me off.
It's a bad habit. But, you don't expect me to bury it all inside, right?
I release my anger and disappointment by ranting non-stop.
It's annoying. I know. And it disturbs the people around me.
Well, I'm trying to change. But on the other hand, I don't want to.
Why must I always work so freaking hard to please everyone?
And in the end, I'm the one who's not happy.
I'm the one who's always angry.
What to do? This is life.
I hate life. And yet, I try my best to enjoy it, no matter what.
Lol. Not try my best laah actually. Sometimes, I really do enjoy it.
Disappointments are unavoidable, but it always depends on how you handle it.
How you accept it.
Why are there obstacles in life?
To make you a better person.
To improve yourself.
To learn more.
To learn how to accept failures and be happy.
To gain more knowledge.
That's what I think to myself whenever I'm down.
We're always yearning for more, and we're always unhappy with what we have now.
I just have to say, LIVE YOUR LIFE AS IT IS. BUT ALSO YEARN MORE, TO GAIN MORE.
Yearning isn't a bad thing. It actually improves oneself to go forward, to work harder.
Nevertheless, try your best, and everything will be fine. ♥
Be yourself, live your life, and have fun. ♥
P.s. : I don't bite. I don't get why people are so scared of me. Please lah, I can take a joke okay? Just don't cross the damned line.
x
Celine (:
She will never forget you,
no matter how much she wants to. ♥
You may not know it,
but she's dying inside.
I know I have not been blogging for the past 2 months :P
That's because my cpu's been unconscious.
Yes. Stupid PC World only returned - correction, CHANGED A NEW ONE - today.
PMR is in 3 WEEKS MY GOD. 21 days! Minus today, 20. FML.
Heheh. Haven't touched the keyboard for so long. lol.
SHO HAPPAAAYYY.
But I've been keeping in touch with muh peeps with my phone >:D
It's just that I didn't get to reblog stuff like I usually do.
It was suffering not to boot the computer everyday. looool.
I could boot it, but it wouldn't come alive. =-= (because there was no cpu, you derp. :[ )
Sooo yeah. Even though my comp's alive again, I can't reblog/blog everyday >B(
I HAZ TO STUDY. B|
TO GET STRAIGHT A'S.
TO GET MY DSLR.
TO GET PEOPLE TO NOTICE MY EXISTENCE. <- just kidding. i dont want the limelight.
TO MAKE MY PAPA AND MAMA PROUD. B|
TO GET INTO 4SC1.
TO PROVE THAT CELINE TAN CAN DO IT.
Yeah man.
Dengan semangat yang berkobar-kobar,
saya akan buat yang terbaik untuk mendapat lapan A. ;D
HAHAHA I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THIS SENTENCE IS CORRECT. B)
OKAY.
GOODBYE.
GOODBYE BABY~ GOODBYE!
LOL.
MR. PANDA IZ BACK. B|
So is Celine. (:
Hello,
and
Goodbye.
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